Thursday, December 30, 2010
Jaely Yunxuan @MAB Brother Yesssssssssss! Serious! Fierce lah! Fiercest than me! Cause I also dknow why he like that lah! -.- His friend even scold me -.-
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Jaely Yunxuan @MAB And even scold my mum lo!
Mel IsBored Wah ! Serious ? So fierce ah ? Tsk ! How come sia
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Friday, December 3, 2010
its been 2 days, since that small incident that nearly might cause me my gf. i learnt a good lesson. trust is important but, love for her that is much more important. that guy talked to her. telling her if she stay with me, he will never step in and never talk to her ever again. it is obvious he have a thing for her. which my oblivious gf do not understand. it is all over now though, she is strong her decision her life commitment to me is strong. she love me for who i am. yesterday even though we met for a short while. i felt so much love. slowly walking back to her house from causewaypoint, as the floor was very slippery. it was so fun and so much laughter. i never doubt the choice i made. the choice on that wonderful day. to commit myself to her, to never doubt the love and trust. today is a friday, i think i am down with a cold. my gf is at home playing her games the whole day. but she worries why i am so tired today. i love her. she is putting in effort in our relationship now and would be in the future to come. she changed for me. she learn her mistakes. she grow wiser and maturer. games was never a problem, is wat games do to a person.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
rants dont read if u dont like rants.
FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER SON OF A BITCH BALLESS DICKLESS HOMOSEXUAL ANIMALISTIC SENSELESS BITCHY BASTARD OF THE FUCKED UP LIFE OF A GOD DAMN LESBIAN GAY FATHER AND MOTHER WHOM HAVE NO BRAINS TO FUCK THEIR OWN FUCKING FUCKED UPED SON TO FUCK UP SOMEONE ELSE'S FUCKING RELATIONSHIP.
done with rant. -satisfied- :3
simply put some dude is chasing after my girl friend. yup literally said "i like you and i wan us to be long term" sweet move dude. if i ever see u face to face. i sure 100% whack till dont look like human.
well suppose to be a happy day today through-out cause its the first time my gf ask me out =D on a date =D watch a movie =D together =D couple seat =DDDDDDDDD till the mother fucker spoilt the starting half of it. the really upset part was my gf knew he like her yet she still go talk to him "as a friend". upsetting indeed. but yes i forgave her not cause she understand but because her action. she made it clear to him she is just a friend nothing more she doesnt like nor love him. infront of me. actions speaks the loudest and yes i was satisfied.
awesome show repunzel, very touching at times and very funny at times. spoiler "the horse is like a damm dog . . ." hahahas.
alright thats all for today. i notice ppl still visit my blog to see whether i update or not. well this is my personal life. so please keep thoughts to urself. no need to share with the whole world de =D cheers and sweet dreams to everyone. may everyone be blessed with a great day ahead of them. ^_^
Monday, November 29, 2010
problems somehow always happen. i dono how it actually happens. seems like we both never actually are truely happy. i keep giving u keep pampering u. can u pamper and give me too. isit that hard? im ur boyfriend. isnt a girlfriend to love her boyfriend with all her heart. not make him feel like shit . . . haish. i dont know . . . its really confusing sometimes.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
how long as it been since i actually blog. i totally forgotten i actually had a blog i could write what i think about on. it would be much better to write all my sadness here. atleast no one reads it. and i atleast say it out.
been a month coming 2 months with bao xian. my love. the one i said i love you daily. the one i shower my love with. the one that i actually am honest to. the one i never lied to. the one that knows me for who i am and not who i was.
i feel that we been seperating more and more. over a silly thing. its just a game. and yes its that game that is seperating us. looking from different points of views. y not i join u in the game. but wouldnt it be lifeless. we wont be a reality couple anymore. everything we do we say will be online. if i join u. thats it. it will officially end the relationship we have.
so i chose not to. i insist on my terms. yet u wont give in. no matter how much i tried. no matter how much i plead. no matter how much i begged. u would not accept me, anymore.
the first few days/weeks of our relationship u promised me. i am ur all. im ur number 1. im ur everything. till maple came back into ur life. slowly u pushed me away. slowly i became number 2. slowly i became number 3. slowly slowly i might become last. but to me ur still number 1. ur still the most important thing in my life. ur still my all, ur still my everything.
so please as i sit there typing this. u might be playing maple. u might be doing other stuffs. it no longer is u talking to me. or telling me what u are doing. i always have to ask u. i have to become a chore to u. something u feel lazy to even do anymore. yes eventually u will get sick and tired of me. but know this. i still love you. i still love you bao xian. i never did not love you.
you just push me to the edge of the cliff. bit by bit. unknowing of ur own actions. even if i tell u about ur actions. how u slowly push me to that edge, u would retaliate with accuses and excuses; reasons and denial.
how i wish all of this will end. so i continue to lie to myself. i continue to hurt myself. i continue to believe in all the words. all the words u tell me. may it be truth or lies. i would just believe them. as i cant believe u anymore. all i can believe in is ur words. cause for the past 2 weeks. all i got were words. not actions. not stuffs. not nothing. just words words and more words.
i too can say i hate you. i too can threathen u. its just parts and parcel of the deal. how u treat me im a mirror i will treat u back the same amount. u treat me good i treat u great. u treat me great i treat u fantastic. once u break the mirror. it ends there. everything will end. all the pain and all the happiness.
i am still looking foward in my life. how i am going to live with you. 3 weeks ago. i thought would i truely seek happiness with u by my side. i found many answers. many ways to be happy with you. till your 18. but each way i try. it seems futile. it seems bad. it seems just useless.
thats all i could say now. i remember the cake u got me. i remember the stars u folded. i remember the first kiss. i remembered every single happiness i had. i just wish it continued. all that happiness. i hope all my friends would forgive me if i did wrong to them cause of my gf bao xian. i sincerly apolodgise to each and every friend whom would feel like i am an arsehole. im sorry. i really am. but im useless. i cant even make my own gf happy. how can i make my friends happy. cause i myself lie to myself to be happy.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
on 4th october 12am. its the first time in a long time. someone said i love you to me. and meant it. thank you. hopefully you can fill up the hole in my heart. my sadness and unhappiness will be shared with u. in the future. what may it brings me. sadness or happiness. ill remember ur honesty and truthfulness today. shared many things about me with you. and you shared many with me. our time spent together may be short. but it will last forever.
im missing you more and more daily. as my time in hong kong comes to an end. my time with you will just begin. i smile and proudly say that i am looking forward to reaching back to singapore. as you are there. waiting for me. missing me. loving me.
Monday, September 20, 2010
2nd day of staying in hong kong. spent a nice night at the hostel. slept well since whole day rain and whole day aircon on. so room nice and cold. slept around 2 am, woke up around 7am.
afterwhich, headed to kowntong vte. something like ite in singapore. only diff is they all can wear what ever they like. SUPER eye candy yoz . . . SHAWN will die just to see. dont worry got video. will upload when i got the time and internet access to do so.
lost my wallet yesterday too. meaning on the 1st day in hong kong. i lost my wallet. HAHAS. idoit me. -slaps-. ok 1 20 still got lessons. after that FREE time WHOOHOOO. cya signing out now.
misses everyone
