Saturday, August 21, 2010
heh i got feelings too right? just because of how i feel. how i act. how i behave. doesn't mean that you can just forget all about human feelings and rights. it's absurb how you behave and treat me. it buffers me your behavior towards me. how different it is. maybe its another one of your sides that you show only to special few? maybe it's just cause you see me as easy to bully? it really gets me thinking. especially after a bathe, how you treated me today.
natsu was, in simple terms, boring. how crowded it was. how badly co-organized it was. even though many friends actually got together, made it all worth while. i honestly distaste the last part. where if i was with shawn and company. i would have to participate. the last segment was dancing. i personally do not like to dance randomly. with literally no practice. to me it's one of the most hated things i would not ever want to do. the beer was great though. sitting there drinking beer watching them all have fun. it doesn't sound as horrible as it seems.
i don't know whether or not i will ever be able to love someone truely every again. but if caring for someone means loving someone. i can live without love and just care for someone. it scares me, sometimes how much love can affect someone. till there is actually no second choice no second chances.
if you really do love me. i hope you understand that i do have feelings too not someone u can hurl vulgarities at and hit. i am not a doll.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
im NOT a loner.
bored at home. go out also cant spend money. hai yo hai yo do what do what!!!!~~~~
finally passed my lesson 1 for practical for my motorbike license. now already booked for 2nd lesson. hopefully would be much easier!!! =D
things i need to do by the end of 2010:
1. get my motorbike license.
2. get myself a motorbike.
3. appreciate what i have more.
4. slim down.
5. get a simple part time job from 6~10/11
6. hopefully find my other half? >.<
7. study for exams.
yeah studying is my less important HAHAS!!!!
ta~ta off to sleep.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
decided to create a new blog hahas. simplier. just something and somewhere for me to post up anything i wish to. recently turned 18, on 11th august. passed not long ago. right now spending lots of money to learn how to ride a motor bike. yes. i am learning how to ride a motor bike!!!! whoohoo~
side note, it is really hard to love or be loved anymore. after all i actually go through. i rather not risk hurting myself. how much it takes to love or be loved. apparently really easy. you just do not know how much it actually might hurt, when it's all over. just looking back really send me chills down my spine.
but, right now is not a time where i have to worry. more i need to be more active. there are other things out there. she is NOT the only thing, she do NOT be the only thing. when the time is right. when the time is here. when time stops for just a second. as we look into each other eyes. we know its right.
planning to get a cheap 2nd hand bike once i pass and get my bike license. aftermaths of it would lead to buying a proper nice 2B bike. which would be lasting me for a long long time. taking the 2b license already was such a hard thing for my family to grasp and understand and accept, i can hardly imagine taking the next license to get a faster bike might cause.
well gotta sleep now. 2am already. tmr at 2 30 i gotta go to cdc to retake my 1st lesson. AGAIN. hopefully i would pass and move on to class 2. total 8 class. gosh . . .
Just End Silently.
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